This is to be the first in several posts in which I am going to outline my journey into depression and then how God showed me his love and pulled me out. For the last several years I have had several very close friends and then others who were not as close, but I was so close to a particular 4 Kami, John, Jeremiah, and Josiah.. I would say that a vast majority of what I did was with these 4 or some fraction of them.We all knew that Josiah, and Jeremiah were planning to go to college in the fall of 08 and I had little trouble dealing with that, I was gone (in Ghana) all of September, and shortly after I returned Jeremiah came in, and then was home for almost a month during Christmas. Besides John and Kami were still here. It was after New years about the middle of January when John got a call from an old friend asking him to go on a trip with Y.W.A.M.(Youth With A Mission) he was supposed to leave in about two weeks, it was at this point that I started feeling like my friends were leaving me.
I do and did understand that Their leaving was imminent, I had just failed to prepare myself for their departure, and while I was excited for John I was starting to feel somewhat abandoned. Yes Kami was still here but (no offence) she’s a girl, (sounds bad does it not) the simple fact is that guys need good guy friends. The other friends who were still around were, well different than me, and it seemed to me that they did not understand me so I was having a hard time connecting with them, this caused me some frustration as well. So there you see how and what led me into depression,. I am not sure if it was really obvious to my friends and family, who were still around but I am sure it was to my mom since Ashley had gone to school, in august (high school) and since I am home-schooled and mom did not work at the time we spent most days home together.it in the midst of this that God came and showed me his love in a way could never have imagined, which I will tell you about in my next post.
Amen, Hallelujah
Ethan
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i had no idea you were depressed, and its been hard for me to connect with a lot of people. i think our friendship is taking off right now, like it never has in the past, partly because the same things are happening to us at the same time, and partly because we have started really connecting in a new way.
im praying for you bud. love you man, lets hang out more, talk more!!
stephen
I totally understand what you’re going through/went through. Right now I think I’m in a depression. I’ve lost my closest female friends in addition to Josiah, Jeremiah, and John. I wasn’t prepared. I thought I was. You’re right a guys do need good guy friends. lol I took no offense to the ” she’s a gir” statement . I hope this kinda makes since. I can’t wait until your next post.